UPDATED BELOW WTF? Pity Friendship?

 I was told today by a person who was a friend in the past her friendship was because she thought that I didn’t have any friends and that no one else wanted to be friends with me.

I thought wow, thanks for the pity friendship. Then my human nature took over and I thought you are a real bitch, you are fake and insincere, and what a service you did by being my fake ass friend. I said this to her also.

Should I feel bad for sending her these words?

I don’t feel good, because I may have hurt her feelings.

She probably doesn’t care if she has hurt mine. Friendship is when you genuinely like someone and you enjoy being friends with them and it’s the same when you love, friendship should be unconditional with healthy boundaries of course.

Why do I attract these type of people to me in my life?

Maybe I am wrong???

What possesses a person to be someone’s friend out of feeling sorry for them, and that they think that it is their duty?

I am gonna say this. For those who have been my friend out of pity.

Thanks but no thanks.

Pity friendship is not needed!

It’s not sincere.

It makes you two faced.

It hurts the person who thought you were a sincere friend.

I have to think why at 40 these people keep falling into my life?

I end up feeling as if there is something wrong with me?

It’s not the rejection that hurts, it’s the fact that for as long as she was my friend, it was a lie.

UPDATE: I didn’t sleep well last night. It was difficult and restless because my brain kept me going back to the whole conversation with this ex friend. I was going to delete this when I got around today. I still want to delete it. The story is so large in my life right now.

I was accused of trying to start shit with her, that my reaching out to correct a wrong was a ploy. She also used to be my hairdresser and babysitter, and she attacked me for her being there for my kids. I told her I paid you to be a babysitter, that was you freaking job.

I think that the Brain has latched onto this and my heart too. I feel so stupid, and so horrible. I feel as if it was my fault. I have cried and been thinking on this since the whole conversation happened.

There are many things with this that I am responsible for. I own that. I did things the wrong way and I own that. I screwed up I own that. I trusted her and I own that.

I never talked bad about her after the friendship was done. She went on a propaganda campaign and bad mouthed me left and right. People were asking what happened, calling me texting me, hitting me up on FB. I told em I didn’t want to talk about it. I have even referred people to her as a babysitter, because she is good with kids.

She said I seek pity…uhm no I  hide from everyone. I don’t share my shit and when I do things like this happen.

I won’t delete this…there will be updates I am sure as the Brain picks this apart. But for now I have family and home to keep me in good spirits.